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ਜਪੁ | Jup
ਸੋ ਦਰੁ | So Dar
ਸੋਹਿਲਾ | Sohilaa
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਿਰੀਰਾਗੁ | Raag Siree-Raag
Gurbani (14-53)
Ashtpadiyan (53-71)
Gurbani (71-74)
Pahre (74-78)
Chhant (78-81)
Vanjara (81-82)
Vaar Siri Raag (83-91)
Bhagat Bani (91-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਝ | Raag Maajh
Gurbani (94-109)
Ashtpadi (109)
Ashtpadiyan (110-129)
Ashtpadi (129-130)
Ashtpadiyan (130-133)
Bara Maha (133-136)
Din Raen (136-137)
Vaar Maajh Ki (137-150)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗਉੜੀ | Raag Gauree
Gurbani (151-185)
Quartets/Couplets (185-220)
Ashtpadiyan (220-234)
Karhalei (234-235)
Ashtpadiyan (235-242)
Chhant (242-249)
Baavan Akhari (250-262)
Sukhmani (262-296)
Thittee (296-300)
Gauree kii Vaar (300-323)
Gurbani (323-330)
Ashtpadiyan (330-340)
Baavan Akhari (340-343)
Thintteen (343-344)
Vaar Kabir (344-345)
Bhagat Bani (345-346)
ਰਾਗੁ ਆਸਾ | Raag Aasaa
Gurbani (347-348)
Chaupaday (348-364)
Panchpadde (364-365)
Kaafee (365-409)
Aasaavaree (409-411)
Ashtpadiyan (411-432)
Patee (432-435)
Chhant (435-462)
Vaar Aasaa (462-475)
Bhagat Bani (475-488)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੂਜਰੀ | Raag Goojaree
Gurbani (489-503)
Ashtpadiyan (503-508)
Vaar Gujari (508-517)
Vaar Gujari (517-526)
ਰਾਗੁ ਦੇਵਗੰਧਾਰੀ | Raag Dayv-Gandhaaree
Gurbani (527-536)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਹਾਗੜਾ | Raag Bihaagraa
Gurbani (537-556)
Chhant (538-548)
Vaar Bihaagraa (548-556)
ਰਾਗੁ ਵਡਹੰਸ | Raag Wadhans
Gurbani (557-564)
Ashtpadiyan (564-565)
Chhant (565-575)
Ghoriaan (575-578)
Alaahaniiaa (578-582)
Vaar Wadhans (582-594)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੋਰਠਿ | Raag Sorath
Gurbani (595-634)
Asatpadhiya (634-642)
Vaar Sorath (642-659)
ਰਾਗੁ ਧਨਾਸਰੀ | Raag Dhanasaree
Gurbani (660-685)
Astpadhiya (685-687)
Chhant (687-691)
Bhagat Bani (691-695)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਤਸਰੀ | Raag Jaitsree
Gurbani (696-703)
Chhant (703-705)
Vaar Jaitsaree (705-710)
Bhagat Bani (710)
ਰਾਗੁ ਟੋਡੀ | Raag Todee
ਰਾਗੁ ਬੈਰਾੜੀ | Raag Bairaaree
ਰਾਗੁ ਤਿਲੰਗ | Raag Tilang
Gurbani (721-727)
Bhagat Bani (727)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸੂਹੀ | Raag Suhi
Gurbani (728-750)
Ashtpadiyan (750-761)
Kaafee (761-762)
Suchajee (762)
Gunvantee (763)
Chhant (763-785)
Vaar Soohee (785-792)
Bhagat Bani (792-794)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਿਲਾਵਲੁ | Raag Bilaaval
Gurbani (795-831)
Ashtpadiyan (831-838)
Thitteen (838-840)
Vaar Sat (841-843)
Chhant (843-848)
Vaar Bilaaval (849-855)
Bhagat Bani (855-858)
ਰਾਗੁ ਗੋਂਡ | Raag Gond
Gurbani (859-869)
Ashtpadiyan (869)
Bhagat Bani (870-875)
ਰਾਗੁ ਰਾਮਕਲੀ | Raag Ramkalee
Ashtpadiyan (902-916)
Gurbani (876-902)
Anand (917-922)
Sadd (923-924)
Chhant (924-929)
Dakhnee (929-938)
Sidh Gosat (938-946)
Vaar Ramkalee (947-968)
ਰਾਗੁ ਨਟ ਨਾਰਾਇਨ | Raag Nat Narayan
Gurbani (975-980)
Ashtpadiyan (980-983)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਲੀ ਗਉੜਾ | Raag Maalee Gauraa
Gurbani (984-988)
Bhagat Bani (988)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਾਰੂ | Raag Maaroo
Gurbani (889-1008)
Ashtpadiyan (1008-1014)
Kaafee (1014-1016)
Ashtpadiyan (1016-1019)
Anjulian (1019-1020)
Solhe (1020-1033)
Dakhni (1033-1043)
ਰਾਗੁ ਤੁਖਾਰੀ | Raag Tukhaari
Bara Maha (1107-1110)
Chhant (1110-1117)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕੇਦਾਰਾ | Raag Kedara
Gurbani (1118-1123)
Bhagat Bani (1123-1124)
ਰਾਗੁ ਭੈਰਉ | Raag Bhairo
Gurbani (1125-1152)
Partaal (1153)
Ashtpadiyan (1153-1167)
ਰਾਗੁ ਬਸੰਤੁ | Raag Basant
Gurbani (1168-1187)
Ashtpadiyan (1187-1193)
Vaar Basant (1193-1196)
ਰਾਗੁ ਸਾਰਗ | Raag Saarag
Gurbani (1197-1200)
Partaal (1200-1231)
Ashtpadiyan (1232-1236)
Chhant (1236-1237)
Vaar Saarang (1237-1253)
ਰਾਗੁ ਮਲਾਰ | Raag Malaar
Gurbani (1254-1293)
Partaal (1265-1273)
Ashtpadiyan (1273-1278)
Chhant (1278)
Vaar Malaar (1278-91)
Bhagat Bani (1292-93)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਾਨੜਾ | Raag Kaanraa
Gurbani (1294-96)
Partaal (1296-1318)
Ashtpadiyan (1308-1312)
Chhant (1312)
Vaar Kaanraa
Bhagat Bani (1318)
ਰਾਗੁ ਕਲਿਆਨ | Raag Kalyaan
Gurbani (1319-23)
Ashtpadiyan (1323-26)
ਰਾਗੁ ਪ੍ਰਭਾਤੀ | Raag Prabhaatee
Gurbani (1327-1341)
Ashtpadiyan (1342-51)
ਰਾਗੁ ਜੈਜਾਵੰਤੀ | Raag Jaijaiwanti
Gurbani (1352-53)
Salok | Gatha | Phunahe | Chaubole | Swayiye
Sehskritee Mahala 1
Sehskritee Mahala 5
Gaathaa Mahala 5
Phunhay Mahala 5
Chaubolae Mahala 5
Shaloks Bhagat Kabir
Shaloks Sheikh Farid
Swaiyyae Mahala 5
Swaiyyae in Praise of Gurus
Shaloks in Addition To Vaars
Shalok Ninth Mehl
Mundavanee Mehl 5
ਰਾਗ ਮਾਲਾ, Raag Maalaa
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<blockquote data-quote="Astroboy" data-source="post: 59978" data-attributes="member: 4990"><p><strong><span style="font-size: 18px"><span style="font-family: 'Arial'">Regrets.... I Have Many</span></span></strong></p><p> </p><p> </p><p>Life in leafy Edgbaston was cosy, routine and without much bother,</p><p> </p><p>Mummy and daddy where professional middle class,</p><p>I was at college study for my A levels,</p><p>I was shy and obedient but I wasn't content,</p><p>I longed for excitement,</p><p>I wanted to live the world,</p><p>I wanted to be as bold as brass and that was my intent.</p><p>At college one day, a lad approached me, as he towards me,</p><p> </p><p>I could see from afar around his neck, he wore the moon and stars around his neck.</p><p>He was very persistent and sweet, </p><p>Told me I was beautiful from my head down to my feet.</p><p>In my innocence by this tender words I was fooled,</p><p>This Muslim boy loved me.</p><p>And the love for my own family cooled.</p><p> </p><p>My stupidity lead me to follow western trends,</p><p>I allowed him to become my boyfriend,</p><p>He had me under his hypnotic spell,</p><p>What I was going to do next nobody could tell,</p><p>I moved from Edgbaston to Sparkbrook.</p><p>I longed to be with my one and only Farooq.</p><p>My life was to change completely,</p><p>Long gone where the afternoon tea parties with the ladies,</p><p>Long gone where my Mummy's BMW and Daddy's Mercedes,</p><p> </p><p>I was soon getting on and off buses and trams,</p><p>As I struggled with a variety of prams,</p><p>I was his sweetheart no more,</p><p>Instead I had become his common *****.</p><p>From Edgbaston to Sparkbrook and then to living hell</p><p>That is Pakistan,</p><p>A distant memory now, but please believe me,</p><p>I had once stood shoulder to shoulder with my dear dad</p><p>and demanded khalistan.</p><p>Oh God</p><p>What have I done?</p><p> </p><p>What has happened to me?</p><p>What have I become?</p><p>As I lay awake at night</p><p>There is nobody to even hear me cry,</p><p>My thoughts are unanswered, questions are my only escape,</p><p>Somebody, anybody! Please tell me?</p><p> </p><p>Will I ever stand in the warmth of my kitchen again?</p><p>Will I ever feel the hug of dear Daddy's strong arms?</p><p>Will my brothers ever fight and play and argue with me again?</p><p>Will I be there when my Mummy and Daddy grow old?</p><p>When my brother gets married will I be there to put the kalgi on his pagh?</p><p>Will I ever again experience the sweet nectar that is Gurbani?</p><p>Will I ever share langar again?</p><p>Now there are no answers, only questions.</p><p> </p><p>I have sown the seed of my own despair,</p><p>My life is in ruins, which nobody can repair,</p><p>My innocence, foolishness, kismet on me all have cheated,</p><p>I desperately want my previous boring life,</p><p>But I fear I am living in false hope,</p><p>In my heart of hearts I know that can never be repeated.</p><p>As I write these word in the unforgiving Pakistani heat,</p><p>Streams of sweat and tears run down my face,</p><p>I realise for me it is now too late,</p><p>Life has dealt me a cruel fate,</p><p>My living hell on my own I have to endure,</p><p>But I plead with my Sikh sisters that you make sure</p><p>Don't be fooled by his looks and false allure.</p><p> </p><p>Stay in the warmth of Sikh religion,</p><p>Maintain your family values,</p><p>Enjoy its rich culture, but unlike me don't abuse its social freedom,</p><p>Ignore my advice at your peril,</p><p>But I beg you to take, a good long hard look at me,</p><p>A pitiful shambles I'm sure you will agree,</p><p>Happiness or even hope, I haven't any,</p><p> </p><p>But regrets.............</p><p>I have many.</p><p> </p><p>(Source: <a href="http://www.whyichosesikhism.com/?p=stories" target="_blank">http://www.whyichosesikhism.com/?p=stories</a>)</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Astroboy, post: 59978, member: 4990"] [B][SIZE=5][FONT=Arial]Regrets.... I Have Many[/FONT][/SIZE][/B] Life in leafy Edgbaston was cosy, routine and without much bother, Mummy and daddy where professional middle class, I was at college study for my A levels, I was shy and obedient but I wasn't content, I longed for excitement, I wanted to live the world, I wanted to be as bold as brass and that was my intent. At college one day, a lad approached me, as he towards me, I could see from afar around his neck, he wore the moon and stars around his neck. He was very persistent and sweet, Told me I was beautiful from my head down to my feet. In my innocence by this tender words I was fooled, This Muslim boy loved me. And the love for my own family cooled. My stupidity lead me to follow western trends, I allowed him to become my boyfriend, He had me under his hypnotic spell, What I was going to do next nobody could tell, I moved from Edgbaston to Sparkbrook. I longed to be with my one and only Farooq. My life was to change completely, Long gone where the afternoon tea parties with the ladies, Long gone where my Mummy's BMW and Daddy's Mercedes, I was soon getting on and off buses and trams, As I struggled with a variety of prams, I was his sweetheart no more, Instead I had become his common *****. From Edgbaston to Sparkbrook and then to living hell That is Pakistan, A distant memory now, but please believe me, I had once stood shoulder to shoulder with my dear dad and demanded khalistan. Oh God What have I done? What has happened to me? What have I become? As I lay awake at night There is nobody to even hear me cry, My thoughts are unanswered, questions are my only escape, Somebody, anybody! Please tell me? Will I ever stand in the warmth of my kitchen again? Will I ever feel the hug of dear Daddy's strong arms? Will my brothers ever fight and play and argue with me again? Will I be there when my Mummy and Daddy grow old? When my brother gets married will I be there to put the kalgi on his pagh? Will I ever again experience the sweet nectar that is Gurbani? Will I ever share langar again? Now there are no answers, only questions. I have sown the seed of my own despair, My life is in ruins, which nobody can repair, My innocence, foolishness, kismet on me all have cheated, I desperately want my previous boring life, But I fear I am living in false hope, In my heart of hearts I know that can never be repeated. As I write these word in the unforgiving Pakistani heat, Streams of sweat and tears run down my face, I realise for me it is now too late, Life has dealt me a cruel fate, My living hell on my own I have to endure, But I plead with my Sikh sisters that you make sure Don't be fooled by his looks and false allure. Stay in the warmth of Sikh religion, Maintain your family values, Enjoy its rich culture, but unlike me don't abuse its social freedom, Ignore my advice at your peril, But I beg you to take, a good long hard look at me, A pitiful shambles I'm sure you will agree, Happiness or even hope, I haven't any, But regrets............. I have many. (Source: [URL]http://www.whyichosesikhism.com/?p=stories[/URL]) [/QUOTE]
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