Anonymous31
SPNer
- Mar 11, 2012
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I just want to know. Im kinda a lost case I somehow ended up doing alot of it 2 years ago. I ended up stopping because I go to high school And got carried away by other things in my life (you know how it is)... ANyyywayzz then when I would do it I would get this amazing feeling in my heart always making me feel good I noticed I started changing Into this amazing person... Then my "friends" Didnt like that about me they wanted me to change back. I guess I kinda got influences by society and here I am on this forum on my quest once again
Now When I do it I sometimes get this lonely feeling deep inside me filled with anger I dislike it.. and really want it to go away.. my psychiatrist said I have bi polar disorder at 1 point along time ago. But my faith in god didnt go away and I kept believing and asking for strength. and I never got that mood swing anymore after all at such a young age I guess it happens to all of us (im 17) any suggestions for me?
I guess only good can turn me back
how is it like for you guys??
Also. kinda confused on this one topic
God decides and controlls us all. but at the same time we have a ego that when we make a decison karma comes back and smacks us in the head. Exactly how does that work? give me a example !?!?!?
If I murder someone I cant say god did it when infact it was me who is the killer. I am at fault because my ego decided to
Now When I do it I sometimes get this lonely feeling deep inside me filled with anger I dislike it.. and really want it to go away.. my psychiatrist said I have bi polar disorder at 1 point along time ago. But my faith in god didnt go away and I kept believing and asking for strength. and I never got that mood swing anymore after all at such a young age I guess it happens to all of us (im 17) any suggestions for me?
I guess only good can turn me back
how is it like for you guys??
Also. kinda confused on this one topic
God decides and controlls us all. but at the same time we have a ego that when we make a decison karma comes back and smacks us in the head. Exactly how does that work? give me a example !?!?!?
If I murder someone I cant say god did it when infact it was me who is the killer. I am at fault because my ego decided to