I do not consider myself precious, I have no belief system myself, so I am not interested in using that to propagate my own thoughts, in that avenue, all options remain open, all opinions must be respected, however, the litmus test is key here, my opinions are merely my opinions, if they are shot down factually, if they fail the litmus test, no one will be more happy about it than me, as I will have learned something.
yes that is hard, I do not envy you. I only have to walk down the street and listen to conversations to know that keeping ones mind uncluttered with pointless information is indeed a good thing.
Sacrifice? you make it sound like a chore, or something that must be done, any meditation and deep thinking I do in between sleeping.
Nope, seeking is seeking, whether its for education, sex, knowledge, wisdom, a new car, love, whatever, its all seeking, its all trying to fill the void, trying to understand why the big black horrible damp dank hole wishes to swallow us up, some people know about the void, others do not, some fill it, some pretend it isn't there, you seek Mukti, I only wish to maintain what I have, which is pretty much nothing anyway, although within nothing is freedom, freedom is good, freedom allows you to be free.To be truly free in my opinion is to want for nothing and to be content with what you have, in that state, no one owns you, nothing owns you, not even Mukti.
Nope, as I said, I wish to continue, not to aspire to another level, you could say that wishing to continue is a goal, but it would only be so, if I ceased to continue, so we have not reached that point. Life has not lost its shine at all for me, life becomes an adventure every day, but an adventure free of the requirements of social interaction, no one upsets me, as I don't interact, no one hates me, but the flip side is of course, no one validates me, and no one loves me, so I spend my day working and doing the things that give me pleasure, whatever that may be on whatever day. I have few problems with the thieves, one thing you notice about solitude is a lack of ego, that is not to say I have conquered ego, I have merely put myself in circumstances where there is no need for ego, if I were to fall in love and get married, obviously my ego would return, or get a job, or even attend a family wedding, but as long as I enjoy the freedom of solitude, no ego is not a problem, neither is conceit, same principles, rage, I have never had a problem with, if anything, my biggest problem is not getting angry, attachment, yes, I suffer that, to my parents, and my 20 year old range rover, and my freedom, if I lost those, then I would probably be better off dead, maybe a visit to dignitas, or possibly a new firm I have read about, indignitas, similar procedure, but they dress you as a clown and throw you out a window, so yes, I suffer that one, and of course, lust,
Ah well you see the litmus test confirms my view, because if God did not go off and do something else, then God did not do a fantastic job given the pain and suffering in the world, no God I could believe in could watch this pain, even use it as a means of teaching, or punishing, and call themselves a God, No God I could believe in could hand out miracles to a certain few for the most mundane of requests (just listen to any Ardass on a sunday) and ignore this suffering, the litmus tests means that God either is unable to do anything, or has a policy of nil intervention for everyone, so I am nothing special, God does not love me, if he did, then I would be confused, why love me, and not the woman being raped in a war zone, or the man being killed, or the many number of people that would suffer today, I do not wish a God to love me and ignore this, that is no God of mine, it sounds more like a Devil. But then, when you look at the attitude to God in the whole, the whole God concept has actually turned him/it into a Devil, this devil is bargained with, promises are made, gifts exchanged, oaths are sworn, all for either material or mental gain, what person, facing death, does not instantly start making deals with this Devil, The Devil corrupts and is corruptible, God does neither, God says, do your own thing, deal with the consequences, and deal with anything that happens in between, here, have a brain, that will help, and then he's off, zoom, whoosh, bang,
The thing inside us dies with us, but then who can really say, who knows, we could argue till the cows come home, even the litmus test is silent on that one.
