Sinister ji
The lack of any kind of 'Officially Endorsed' Christian Existentialism, is one of the main reasons I left the Catholic Church; though, if you look at, say, St John the Divines' writings through the eyes of a Dharma Practitioner, then you'll see that they let a few slip through the cracks.
The rest? Burned at the stake alive. The Church was, and to a lesser degree nowadays is, all about Control - not about seeking the Truth, let alone seeking it within.
The Borgias and Medici Popes saw to that; and, in the late 9th and early 10th Centuries of the 'Common Era', the 'Eccumenical Councils' eviscerated (from the Biblical Gospels) whatever was left of any kind of 'Pro-Gnosticism' content.
If you want to read about Christian Existentialism, read The Gnostic Gospels; which are based on some Scrolls (NOT the Dead Sea Scrolls) that some Bedouins found in a Jar in Egypt in the 1930s' (I think); they have many interesting, and by Catholic Standards Heretical (aka; They'd Burn You Alive for even reading them at one time), writings that - apparently - date to the 3rd and 4th C. CE.
There's even a Gospel of MARY! OMG - the very IDEA was once soooo UN-Clean!
I think Nestorius was the Last real Christian; but, true to form, the Eastern (Un)Holy Roman Pope had Him KILLED.
Addressing your, and Satyaban jis, Ideas about the Big Bang, etc. - through detailing my own Existential Experiences/Observations, and then reconciling them with QCM, String, and Brane/Bulk Theory would take several pages, and much time that I do not have right now.
If you go to my Introducing Myself and/or Bio Page, you'll see that I've had several blessed opportunities to get an answer (or, rather, part of one) to these issues right from OM's Own Mouth!
Keep Thinking! Some day we'll travel the Stars via our Minds as-of-yet untapped powers - just like in Dune!
