I can relate to that, I feel quite similar, but probably for different reasons,
you sound like a nice person, I have not always done that
and reading on, this is something you have been successful at,
Ahhh I did something similar years ago, good old hydroponics! but not for the same motives,
well your a fighter, that much is true
ok, so you probably would not have helped me, but I fail to see why this is a problem, even less so as you are facing it, I only help people I can relate to, it saves time, you can end up helping the wrong people, and then it isn't help at all, its a waste of time for everyone, for you, for the person you are trying to help, you can create dependants instead of waking people.
Crumbs your amazing, I would have spent some time in a deep depression for a while, have you come here to taunt us with your impressive backbone? Its certainly stronger than mine.
ok, this is clearly some sort of wind up, if this is what you are like broken, I would love to have met you when you were unbroken. You are self aware to a point that some people can only dream of,
Exciting isn't it.
Oh I have never said that, mine is "if you do not think like me ..... then I can understand why
This is a great optimistic post!
Well it does not read like that to me, it reads like the story of a man who did the right thing, who raised kids, who made friends, who was honest, and instead of doing it all for the carrot, suddenly realises there is no carrot.
Hmmmm I don't think your tired, I think you are struggling to accept the change, don't struggle, its good change, its growing, there is no carrot, no reward, whatever we do either brings us closer to the light, or closer to the darkness, unless you are half wolf, in which case you are destined to live in a sea of duality till you die. Whether you are tired or not, you are rising mate, not much you can do about that., unless you wish to take the Harry Haller course on self destruction, which you probably won't, there is too much about self preservation with you, admirable...
I am quite evil myself, its a gift, from god, its the evil in me that drives me to fight to be good, and because I won't let it win, I have to be more good than I care to be, I have to overcompensate, I think the nicest people in this world are the most evil, its how they can manage to look in the mirror in the morning.
It is not beauty I find in everyone and everything, it is god, and I am sorry to say, it is responsibility, for me anyway, I cannot stand by and ignore what is happening in front of my nose, no matter how trivial or large, I keep hearing god asking for my help, for a discount, for a free home visit, for advice, or assistance, I am duty bound to help, but purely on the basis that they go away and leave me alone afterwards, what a truly beautiful soul you are,.
You don't have time to sit, I would imagine your too busy being in consonance to sit.
As we have bonded, over this thread, I leave you with the song de jour, I have just left my wife, and so am getting to grips with being truly alone, no wife, no dogs, no stepson, and being a lover of the 80's, this is what is playing, at very loud volume this very moment, whilst I get to grip with a pile of Dell E6320's! (btw the missing drivers are motion sensor, fingerprint reader and intel driver pack, just in case anyone else had a similar problem!)
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Don't give up, if you do, then we will all have to
actually the song after that one was a bit more apt, but you have to play it loud!
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