- May 9, 2006
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Ugh. For the last couple of weeks I've been so highly anxious it's annoying.
When I get like this, I tense myself from the shoulders up. I'll be doing something, and realised I'm hunched over in a tight little ball while I'm doing it, and have to exhale, straighten up and relax. And then, 60 seconds later, I'm scrunched up again.
Also, as I sleep, my shoulders, neck and jaw tense. I grit my teeth but more on the right side, which makes my jaw hinge on that side swell and its painful to open my mouth to yawn or take a decent bite of food.
And that's just the subconscious anxiety.
Consciously, I'm aware of a constant 'amber alert' status throughout my body and mind. I feel like something could go wrong at any second. And countless times during the day I have 'anxiety spikes' where I get a rush of nauseating fear that radiates out from my solar plexus and makes me feel profoundly uncomfortable.
Yes, I have medication for anxiety, and yes, I've been taking it as directed. Usually it works to smooth out the edges. But sometimes (since it's such a low dose) it's just not enough to keep the dogs at bay.
When I get like this, I tense myself from the shoulders up. I'll be doing something, and realised I'm hunched over in a tight little ball while I'm doing it, and have to exhale, straighten up and relax. And then, 60 seconds later, I'm scrunched up again.
Also, as I sleep, my shoulders, neck and jaw tense. I grit my teeth but more on the right side, which makes my jaw hinge on that side swell and its painful to open my mouth to yawn or take a decent bite of food.
And that's just the subconscious anxiety.
Consciously, I'm aware of a constant 'amber alert' status throughout my body and mind. I feel like something could go wrong at any second. And countless times during the day I have 'anxiety spikes' where I get a rush of nauseating fear that radiates out from my solar plexus and makes me feel profoundly uncomfortable.
Yes, I have medication for anxiety, and yes, I've been taking it as directed. Usually it works to smooth out the edges. But sometimes (since it's such a low dose) it's just not enough to keep the dogs at bay.