Would you guys like to share any experiences that are same/similar to "dieing whilst still being alive"?
sure why not, when I was a kid, I had two heroes, Chevy Chase and Clint Eastwood, specifically the characters Clark Griswald, and Dirty Harry, in fact, I only got married so I could have an ex wife chase me for maintenance, hilarious! I loved his irrelevance, wit, and inability to get angry. In time I found I could not understand the Dirty Harry character, it was too dark, and at the time I believed no one could be that cold, I loved life, women, fun, upsetting the system, I had fears, aspirations, desires, I wanted to live forever.
Circumstances changed me, over the years, life became something other than a grand stage, something other than to be loved, death became something other than reincarnation, it became the end, but not to be feared. Possessions, money, love, temporary happiness all became moot, and as things levelled, I went further, cold, heat, hunger, desire, all became irrelevant, until one day I looked in the mirror, looked beyond Chevy Chase, and found myself staring into the eyes of Dirty Harry, so, where does that leave me? I want nothing, I fear nothing, it is my absolute duty as a Sikh to be in tune with the world, to be in consonance, to be part of the energy that drives the world, to assist, to nurture, not blindly, but with tact, discretion, and the one skill that keeps growing, perception. Whether this perception is merely a figment of my imagination is up for debate, but I find myself reading people better, reading situations better, not for personal gain or for business, but to see' how can I help' 'what can I do', 'what does this person want from me, if anything'
Holidays, pets, relationships, clothes, status, ego, all bore me, the living death now means I am better equipped to seek and help. Would I go back? no, I would not, I am free from anger, disappointment, sadness, for the first time in my life I am truly free, and what does this freedom bring, the responsibility of assistance.
We are all different, We all get what we need from Sikhi, in my view, the desire for spiritual enlightenment, is no different to the desire for more ice cream., but then thats my own view.