Hello, I was on here briefly a long time ago. Long enough to forget my password, so I feel like I am starting anew.
I am a 54, female and pretty well read. Maybe too much. I have read every philosopher under the sun, and have learned that intellectualizing too much can not only turn a person into a skeptic about everything, but also a bore.
I feel like I've gone around in circles reading about religion. I have studied Buddhism for quite some time, and quite frankly, it leaves me cold. Being a somewhat withdrawn person, it was of absolutely no help to me, just making me feel further detached from life and retreating into myself even further. I feel more depressed now than I ever did. Ditto Hinduism, as the bottom line with that for me is, yes a lot of brilliant thought came out of it, but.....that terrible caste system. Where is the sense of joy? I also sense a lack of justice and quite frankly found Buddhism would turn me into a doormat. I have read much on Sikhism, but can't say I know all aspects of it, and would like to learn. Call me boring, but I am a sensible person. I don't believe in dietary codes, a rigid way of thinking because "it's always been done this way", etc. I am basically a person of common sense.
Can you advise me of a good copy of your Guru Granth Sahib? Hope I got that right. I don't fit in anywhere and am going through a terrible crisis in my life on top of everything else. I have read the story of Guru Nanek and always thought he got it right. I am looking for some joy in my life, without a bunch of rigid "do's and don'ts". There must be a religion that promotes happiness and the well-being of all, without asking one to be a doormat. That is my biggest pet peeve with all the religions I've studied. I say studied, because none of them have clicked with me. I am not a warlike person, but I certainly feel people have the right to defend themselves and others. Mostly I have found a total lack of common sense. Like, to just let people walk all over you, which doesn't go down very well with me. I also have a good sense of humor, despite the tone of this introduction. Why are so many religious people so dry and grim? Anyway, I have blabbed on enough. Just my opinion, and maybe I will find some sanity in Sikhism.