Harry ji,
I have enough trouble keeping my mind free from agitation
It because you don't stop doing things. You contemplate all the time, seeking contemplation to figure out your life, your relationship and ideals. Instead try waiting for the contemplation to come to you. Whenever you want to begin contemplation, or if find you are in it, finish the line of thought, then stop and wait for the next thought like a lioness who waits for the antelope, in an ambush. She gets real low and alert and looks for the perfect opportunity to ambush it's prey. It waits patiently in the grass until the antelope gets close. When it does, it jumps out and chases after it.
Be a lioness.
Wait for the thought and then when it arrives, say it out loud. Continue to think out loud. Now a thought is like a whole herd of antelopes. A train of thought, is not even a herd, it is like that scene from the Lion king, with Simbah dangerously trapped on that mound. Massive waves of wildebeasts, like an ocean. lol
We want to catch an antelope. An antelope is more like a word. Each word of a thought is an antelope. Now when you speak, wait for the word to come to you, as you previously waited for thoughts to come to you. Instead of looking for words to think let them come to you. Kind of like Dhur ki bani, it came to Guru Nanak, he did not chase after it. Let words come to your mouth. dhur ki bani aayi... tin sagli chint mitaee.
Do not attempt this in public. Unless you happen to be in India amongst people doing Bhang.
PunjabiEspada ji,
OK I am ready to answer since I got a chance to observe it.
I eat it for the same reason I eat vegetables... actually, it's not a reason, there are no reasons here. I get hungry, I seek tasty food, I eat. Nowhere during that process do I begin to have reasons. Nowhere do I begin to differentiate between meat and vegetables. It's all food to me. I eat whatever available. I do not consider the individual spices, herbs, chemicals, preservatives in it either when I eat. I just enjoy the sensory whoopie it gives me on my taste buds and move on.
Now later on I do make up reasons to post on SPN. That I was created to eat food. The purpose of my life is to eat, as ordained by God. If I don't, the divine purpose will not be fulfilled. If the divine purpose is not fulfilled, the universe will come to a halt. The divine purpose must keep operating and the moment it is stops means the end of the world. Thus to keep the entire universe running, I eat.
But going back to the actual experience, there are no reasons there. There is no "why". There is simply the being and doing (getting hungry and eating food).