Welcome thinkforyourselfji sister,
Do not worry, we are not seeking converts, only dialogue with others from any faith or background to share common views or debate uncommon ones, I also do not believe in a personal God, so you are not alone there, you are also lucky in being able to relate to 99%, I can only manage 99.99%!
I know exactly what you mean. This may sound boring, but I am a sensible person. On another thought,
Is it just me, or is anyone else sick and tired of the word "compassion"? Why doesn't anyone use the word "justice"? I find I just do not have compassion for everyone, nor do I think they derserve it. Now I don't mean your everyday sort of person. People aren't perfect and everyone has their faults, but when I read these horror stories every day and what people get away with, and then to have these loonies standing outside a prison with signs saying how we should be compassionate towards people that do evil. No way, I'm not havin' it!
Although I don't believe in a personal God, I do believe in one. I did not create myself. God is a very hard concept. As soon as you start to describe it, it just slips through your fingers. It's really mind boggling. I used to read a lot of Spinoza, a Dutch Jew from the renaissance era. I am quite fond of his philosophy, although people see him as a pantheist, and they easily could have burned him at the stake . He was ostracized from his Jewish community. He said that God is the only susbstance that exists. We are thought and extensions of him. Einstein said he believed in the God of Spinoza. I don't see Spinoza quite as a pantheist, as that would limit god if he were just everything, things being finite. It's more like we exist in Him. Kind of like an all-encompassing infinity. Total "being". The only thing I strongly disagree with him about is he was a determinist. I believe we are individuals with choices. So I'm still finding my way.